Life seems to take over everything. And I mean life in the sense of decisions, relationships, our work... any external interaction. I do not think of life as having a negative connotation. Life is... life is everything to us. It's an all encompassing word that expresses vitality, excitement, possibility, grandeur. But, it's also the blanket term for the tedious daily tasks, the struggles, everything that's outside of our control (and yet still, somehow, controlling us).
Facing my last semester of college, I look back and see how far I come. The first semester of dealing with life changes and becoming victorious over depression worse than I'd ever known, to now... having learned so much more about who God is, and what He is in me. I have discovered my calling, stepped forward in it, and learned what Kingdom work really is. And I have so much left to learn. I have my whole life ahead of me. Sorry for the cliche, but it's true. I've lived probably less than a third of my life. There's a ways to go.
I was reading 1 Kings 17 tonight, thinking about Elijah and what he went through on his journey working for the kingdom. God had a specific calling on his life. He was obedient and followed it. He even sat by the brook of Cherith, being fed by the Ravens. It may have been easier making that decision, knowing it was for his safety from Ahab. But, he was fully trusting of God and did as he was told.
What a difference it would make if we just did what we were told. I am challenged by Elijah. I believe there will be a desert time in my life soon. It's not an exciting thought, and it's not a welcoming thought. But, seeing how God cared for Elijah, I am reminded that God will provide. That's a given, but here's what's more... It will test my faith, save me from damaging experiences, and prepare me for what's next. I am willing to go through anything for that safety, training, and growth of faith. To stay in my comfort zone would never give me any of that.
I've resolved to set out to that small stream that might dry up, to live in a cave that might not be comfortable, and be fed by God's kingdom. I may have apprehension, and my heart may waiver, but God stays true even when I do not.
